Snippets From a Short Work Week

I always tend to lie low right before Sommerzeit (Daylight saving) comes to an end. So, last weekend I kept a very low profile, venturing out only to do a brief bit of shopping Saturday morning.  I had stayed in the previous evening, and somehow found myself watching the first three films of the Lethal Weapon series.  Normally, that should have prompted me to actually try and make up for time wasting by being extra active the following day.  Instead, I consciously worked on being as productive as possible at, well, being unproductive.  Sometimes a lazy Saturday is just what one needs.

This did include preparing myself a huge portion of nachos at home, which I ate while watching the Arsenal game via stream in my living room.  During the second half of the match, I woke up just in time to see the stream start to hang, right as Arsenal got their winning goal.  I went on to celebrate the victory by selecting another film to watch, one that was rather higher up the cinematic scale.  This is precisely why people need to have DVDs of Hitchcock films at their house.

I had already changed the time on the wall clock in my kitchen in the afternoon, way earlier than necessary.  And like usually happens after a lazy day, I found myself going to bed early because I was tired. 

Not surprisingly, I woke up Sunday morning rather early, but quite refreshed.  I enjoyed a few coffees during the morning while listening to German public radio.  In the past weeks, I have avidly listened to Deutschlandfunk. (note to the non-German reader: funk here refers to the German term for radio and does not have anything to do with the music of James Brown.)  I kind of wish that I started this habit years ago when I first arrived in Germany, as it certainly would have accelerated my ability in the German language.  Still, better late than never.   This particular Sunday morning, they broadcast an interview with the author Judith Kerr, a German woman whose family had to flee Germany during the early 1930s.  They landed in Britain, and she became an author of children's books.  So, my Sunday morning was most enjoyable as I listened to her tell her interesting story.

After a bit of piano time later in the afternoon, I did slip across to the pub for a few quiet beers.  As always, I was amazed as it suddenly got dark early in the evening.

Monday, I started the work week hoping that things would stay quiet.  To celebrate the 500th anniversary of Martin Luther's 95 Theses (Reformation Day), the whole of Germany took an official holiday on the 31st of October.  Since the 31st was on Tuesday, a fair amount of people had a "bridge" day on Monday. I, unfortunately, did not have said bridge day, but the 1st of November was also going to be a public holiday in many European countries, including some states of Germany. Again, November 1 is not a public holiday in my state, but most of my repair partners are in other countries, particularly those that DO celebrate the 1st.  Therefore, Wednesday was going to be a quiet work day, for sure.

Monday evening, I met up at the kiosk with a few friends as part of our standard routine.  A couple of guys were absent (due to bridge day), but a lot of people were out on the streets taking advantage of the coming Tuesday holiday.  Some bars and restaurants, those that like to celebrate Halloween, elected to have their parties on the Monday night so as to allow revelers sufficient time to recover from their hangovers. 

I am not a huge fan of Halloween, myself, so Tuesday I took it easy.  Wednesday, as expected, things were pretty calm on the work front, so I was able to get a few things accomplished without having to deal with the normal interruptions of various colleagues and partners.  That evening, we once again convened at the kiosk, this time with almost all of the usual suspects in attendance.  Those of us that appreciate the significance of Monday night kiosk Abend recognize that flexibility is always key.  After all, when it comes to gathering with friends to drink beer, one can respect that we can simply plan our schedules around public holidays without any fuss.

Wednesday evening at the kiosk was particularly enjoyable.  Everyone was in good humor, jokes were flying around; that is always a good thing.  Maybe it was because we only had a couple more days until the weekend, I don't know.  It wasn't just us, either.  As we were standing there having a good time, a young family exited their building right next to us.  The youngest, who is probably 7 or 8 months old and being carried by her mother, was just giggling away without any care in the world.  It's a bit of a production for a a family with small children to get going, what with strollers, baby bags, etc.  So, they were all right there by us for several minutes, and the child's laughter was simply contagious.  The little one just captured our hearts, and even those of a few people (who looked rather dour) that were passing by.

I am not saying that our evenings at the kiosk are totally like Monty Python sketches, but we do tend to continue themes throughout our evenings.  Sometimes it's about the inability of someone to parallel park, or the strange noise coming from someone's bicycle as they ride by, or a group of really loud tourists walking past after eating in the traditional German restaurant down the street. ("They're some of yours, Bryan," my friends usually say, referring to the fact that said tourists were obviously speaking my mother tongue and scoring a perfect 10 on the stereotype scale.  This is actually a backhanded compliment, as all of us in the kiosk gang not only respect each others cultures but also know full well that people can behave differently when they are not zu Hause.)

So, for the rest of the night, someone regularly emulated the child's giggle, and each time, we all had a good laugh.

I finished the work week with a quiet Friday evening, but jumped up yesterday morning with productive intentions.  I hoovered and mopped the entire flat, got the shopping done, and got a good workout in at the gym.  During the afternoon, I enjoyed several beers while sitting outside the pub, watching people go about their activities on a crisp fall Saturday.  There is nothing better than enjoying one's alone time without feeling lonely.  Yesterday was one of those good days where I was able to collect my thoughts, spend some time on my own, but also exchange pleasantries with a few friends and locals as they went about their own business.

The pleasant weekend continued later that evening with a little movie night with a friend, including a bit of take-out and ice cream.

This morning, it is cold and rainy, but I am literally watching leaves fall from the tree outside my door as I write this piece.  It is a nice way to appreciate autumn, especially from the warmth of my flat.

I will spend the afternoon at the pub, watching a little footy, and fully expect for there to be some giggling involved. 

see you out there
bryan

A Little Nostalgia to Start the Weekend

"Let's go to the San Francisco Rose.  The burgers are great, and they serve something called a Toolbox, which is a super drink."

The year was 1989 or 1990, and Chris and I were out looking for something to eat. 

Indeed, the burgers were quite tasty, but I was particularly thrilled to be drinking my first alcoholic beverage in a restaurant.  This was a huge deal for me, as I was still a couple of years away from actually being of legal age.  It was not so much that I was so interested in drinking, but rather the actual idea that I could drink a beer in public.  I guess it may have been a coming of age thing. 

Those early days are bit fuzzy.  I did return on a few occasions, and somewhat memorably (and just a tad foolishly) I returned there to celebrate my 21st birthday, when I was actually turning of legal age. I remember trying somewhat feebly to explain that that particular evening was actually my 22nd, no, 23rd birthday.  Of course the staff knew, and of course, back then it was not that big of a deal to be drinking under age in various establishments. 

Once I was 21, though, I made the Rose my local haunt.  I was still in college, but I regularly brought more and more school friends by for burgers and beers.  We had started driving into Dallas for the odd rock show, which almost always included a stop for dinner before hitting the club.  The "We" was usually Bill and I.  I had gotten to know Bill during a school trip to Ireland, during which time we developed a taste for a nice whiskey.  Once I introduced him to the Toolbox (complete with the story of my first ever trip to the Rose), he also became quite the fan.

The Rose's Toolbox was a mixed drink somewhat on the strong side:  equal portions Vodka, Kahlua, Bailey's, and cream.  On ice.  Refreshing, tasty, and it was pretty much my choice drink at the place.

By the time I graduated from college, Tim had also become a fan of the Rose.  The summer of 1992 was all about playing pool at the Royal Rack most afternoons, and otherwise we spent hours and hours sitting on the patio at the Rose, contemplating our futures.  The patio was easily one of the best in the city, and Tim and I both agreed that it was time well spent.  We could relax and escape the scary thought of actually having to go look for a job and begin our careers.

By the end of that summer, my father finally lost his patience with me and gave me some very strong encouragement to go find a job, and be quick about it.

That actually turned out to be excellent advice, as my consumption of Toolboxes was impressively (and frighteningly) high.  It was time to enter the real world.

Tim left town for a few months, but returned within half a year.  Suddenly, we were both gainfully (if not embarrassingly...viva the Shack and viva the Hut!) employed, and Tim had an apartment not too far from, where else?

I had continued to be a frequent patron of the Rose during Tim's hiatus, and once he was back in town, we would be there multiple nights throughout the week.  Because it was a neighborhood bar, there were a lot of regulars, many of which we got to know.  One evening during a college basketball tournament, the place was hopping.  One of the games was being shown on one of the television screens, and one guy made a buzzer shot that was so incredible that about half the guests stood up and cheered.  The funny thing was, no one was really there to watch the game.  It was just one of the moments when everyone glanced at the TV at the exact moment the guy made the shot.  Great memory.

Some of the regulars were quite a few years older than we were.  At least, that's how it seemed to me at the time.  Then again, when you are 20-something, anyone older than you are is simply old.  One of them was never short of wisecracks; he was a really funny guy.  To get to the bathrooms, you had to sort of go down a dark hallway which was a bit cramped and had a sharp corner.  Right at that corner, there used to be a little newspaper dispenser (remember those?) holding the Dallas Observer. During the more quiet afternoons, you almost always heard someone bump into the thing, and it made a very recognizable sound.

"Watch that first step.  It's a doozy," the guy would call out.  I think I laughed out loud EVERY time he said that.  Of course, when it was my turn, despite my best efforts, I invariably bumped into it myself.  This wasn't of great surprise, especially after six toolboxes.  And for those that have heard me utter a similar statement out and about in Frankfurt or wherever, now you know where I got the line from.

Along with getting to know the other regulars, Tim and I really got to know the staff, and this is probably where my attraction to waitstaff really took off.  In fairness, we were just socializing and being friendly.  It certainly helped that most of the staff were the same age as we were, but we were (and still are) nice people.  I think neither Tim nor myself, however, expected to start dating any them.  Although I dated a couple of the girls, Tim actually got himself into a relationship, which continued for quite some time.  This created some interesting stories, which I will save for another time.  Overall, it was just a wacky time of life.

Meanwhile, I continued to take just about every girl I went out with to the Rose.  The patio was just brilliant, and umpteen toolboxes always hit the spot. And yes, for a time, it seemed my love life (as remarkably inactive as it was) revolved around a Rose and a toolbox.  Hmmm.

Alas, we reached a point where it was time to find a new watering hole, and about that time I started spending a lot more time at the Dubliner, which became my new local until I moved to Boston.

Upon my return to Dallas after two years, things had changed, probably for the better. Tim had moved to Austin and was happily settled, and I found myself back in a city that I had to get to know again.  This meant finding a new local, but those stories from the Monk will be shared at another time. 

By chance, I ran into an old friend of mine from church.  He had played in a few bands when we were in high school, and had continued his aspirations to perform his music throughout the 90s.  He mentioned that he was tending bar at none other than the San Francisco Rose, and I should drop by and see him. (Hey, I drank my first toolbox there!) 

I took him up on his offer and went by the Rose for old times' sake.  Like many places, they were experimenting with new attractions, and Dave told me that he was going to be playing a few sets of his own material.  Always one to support local talent, I made a point of going to the Rose every time he played, bringing along any friends who were up for the outing.  Dave was playing at a few other local venues as well, and I made sure to catch any show that I could.

Dave did not work that long at the bar, but for however brief that time was, it was nice to be back in the old Rose.

I did not make it back to the Rose again until around 2008, when I arranged to meet Tim, along with his wife and young son there during a stateside visit.  My own young nephew was also in town, along with his folks, and we spent a nice Saturday afternoon catching up and watching the boys play together.  The burgers were still great, and I took the opportunity to have another toolbox. 

Of course, living in another country limits my visits to a lot of places I like in Dallas, but when I have been back to visit, the Rose hasn't been on the list, mainly since it wasn't ever really the same going there without Tim all those years ago.

So, the last time I did see Tim in Dallas, which was about 3 years ago, we made the decision to head to the Rose.  Sadly, with the exception of two people sitting at the bar, obviously friends of the bartender, the place was completely empty.  Since it was summer, we sat outside, which was only slightly less dreary than inside.  The food was OK, and I did have one last toolbox, and of course, the company was fine.  I think I probably realized then that it would be unlikely I would return to the place.  The memories I have from there are great, but the place was no longer MY neighborhood bar.  At the time, it did not look like it was anyone's neighborhood bar any longer.  Despite that, I hoped that the little place would continue, though I had some doubts.

I celebrated the start of 2017 in Dallas; I had spent Christmas there, as I have in recent years. My parents, nephew and I went to brunch at a restaurant right next door to the San Francisco Rose.  As we walked outside after eating, I went over and stood outside the patio of my old haunt.  I explained to my nephew that I had spent many many wonderful hours hanging out there years before.  He listened politely, but I don't think he was particularly enthralled.  I couldn't blame him, as the place was almost as empty as it was when I was last there.

Sigh.

This morning, I woke up to find an email from Moe with a link to a brief article from a Dallas neighborhood rag:  the San Francisco Rose, after 40 years, will soon be closing.

So, another of my old haunts is shutting down, but that is just how it is.  Those times were great, and will always stay with me. 

Chris sent me a text early this week, commenting about an enjoyable quiet night he'd had at the Monk.  It was another reminder of other good times.  I think it is great that I seem to associate periods of my life with the places I frequent.  The Deep Ellum days, or the Dubliner times, or the Old Monk era...all of them have tremendous significance for me. 

As for the San Francisco Rose years, I will simply smile and say thanks.

see you out there
bryan

Domesitc Appliances and DHL Deliveries - Just Another Online Order

I don't know what baffles me more: the delivery habits of the guys who drive for logistics carriers or my own tendency to misunderstand basic kitchen appliances.

For years, I have worked in the repair logistics industry, and the frequency of delivery incidents has always amazed me.  All too often, it seems that the incidents could have been avoided simply by confirming the address.  I have resolved countless situations where a package could not be delivered because the customer was not at home.  Upon speaking with the client, I would find out that the customer had given their home address despite knowing that they would not actually be at home when the package was to be delivered.  "Oh, I work during that day, so was not at home," is something I have heard repeatedly.  "Can the package be routed to my office?"

"Of course," I would always respond.  "Any reason you didn't specify that address when arranging the service?"

This works in both directions, of course.  Just last week, I had a particularly difficult situation where a customer had sent their mobile device into the repair center for service, but somehow the wrong contact name was listed on the waybill.  As a result, despite the fact that the delivery location was an actual repair center, the small package was put on the desk of some guy who happened to be on holiday.  Two weeks later, he returned to find a package on his desk, and he immediately gave the unit to the repair area.  Unfortunately, the two week delay caused great dissatisfaction to the customer, and understandably so.

Last year, the company I work for took over the management of the mobile phone repair network for a billion dollar company.  During the first months of our involvement, I handled several cases where naive customers (and rather poorly trained customer care centers) sent their expensive mobile device simply to the address of the company headquarters, where the package would effectively go into a black hole and never reach the place it should have. 

In my own personal life, I always take care to make absolutely sure I am specifying the address that I want a package delivered to.  I make my share of online orders, and really appreciate the requirement that I confirm, then re-confirm the shipping address before my order is finalized.

So, last Thursday morning when the switch on my electric kettle finally broke, I jumped online and placed an order for a replacement Wasserkocher.  At the check out screen I confirmed my address, and looked forward to receiving it in the next day or two. Normally, the order confirmation gives a target date for when the package will be delivered, and when I received my per-alert that the order had been sent, I knew to expect delivery sometime on Saturday.

I really only had one task to do on Saturday, which was to do the shopping.  I figured I would putter around the flat during the morning, at least until the delivery guy showed up, then go to the store.
By early afternoon, I decided to take a chance and dash down the street to the store; I was tired of waiting and really wanted to avoid the late-afternoon shopping rush.  I would just have to risk missing the arrival of the delivery guy.

As I stepped out of my front door, I checked my mailbox, and found a "Sorry we missed you!" delivery notice. The notice went on to inform me that my package had been left at the house two doors down from me.  I was rather surprised and irritated.  I had been home the whole morning, as had several other neighbors who live not only in my building, but also the building right next door.
The bell never rang, and I suspect it is because the delivery driver never bothered to press the bell.

Many years ago, I did have the unfortunate issue where my doorbell was not functioning, but I never knew this.  At the time (much the way it is now), I was not receiving a lot of visitors, so it took me longer to realize that there had been a problem.  However, that was a long time back, so there really was no excuse this time.  After all, I know perfectly well that my doorbell is in working order.

The thing was, I had ordered two items on Thursday, and this meant that there would actually be two deliveries.  Therefore, I still needed to be quick at the store, so that I could return home and plant myself at the window overlooking the street  to make sure that the next driver didn't try and pull the same stunt and simply put a notice in my mailbox instead of attempting to deliver the package. I took my notice with me, and after making my quick shopping trip, I intended to stop off at the house two doors down so as to collect my first package. 

My shopping trips are always pretty short, and I was fortunate to have been in the shortest check-out line, so 15 minutes later I was about half a block from my house when I saw a guy carrying two packages.  He looked a lot like guy intent on making a delivery, and sure enough, I could see that he was approaching my house.  I was a bit too far away to call out to him, but I could see that he seemed mildly irritated as no-one was answering the door after he had pressed the bell. 

His irritation turned to mild surprise as he looked in my direction, to see me hustling towards him with a couple of shopping bags.  "Hey, I think you are looking for me," I said, only slightly out of breath. "Kann sein," he responded. 

Sure enough, it was my second package! 

I quickly signed for it, then shoved it inside the door, then went back to the house two doors down, rang the doorbell, and was delighted when a woman holding a package addressed to me opened the door.  I wished her a pleasant weekend, then returned home with all my stuff.

In fairness, at least one of the drivers who delivers in my neighborhood makes an effort to actually deliver packages.  On the positive side, everything worked out as it should have, and by Saturday afternoon I was opening my new kettle. 

I tend to glance through the accompanying user's manuals for even the most simple of items, including my new kettle.  As our world has grown smaller (and sadly, a lot more ridiculous, though I will refrain from discussing politics, disgusting movie producers, social media, and Arsenal football in this post) I have noticed that the manuals that come with items are usually translated into lots of different languages, which I find very cool.  However, it might be a stretch to actually call these user guides, because more often than not, there is simply a set of pictures illustrating the step by step process. 

OK, so there really is not too much involved in heating up water, but what I had failed to realize when selecting my new kettle was that there was no indicator light.  Again, this is not a huge deal, but two days before when I was telling a friend that I had just ordered a kettle, he asked me what color the indicator light was, and went on to explain that he had recently had a kettle that had a blue light, which didn't seem logical, as one does not usually think of blue when thinking of boiling water, but rather red, or as in the case with my old kettle, orange.  I plugged my new appliance into the socket, and looked forward to seeing what color the light would be, and was slightly let down.

That being said, the water heats up nicely, and makes a sound that I find quite comforting.

Last evening, as I was cleaning up after dinner, I spent a few extra minutes on my salad spinner.  This particular gem I ordered (and received without any delivery incident) several months ago, and I absolutely love it.  Not only have I increased my greens consumption by about 1000%,  I just like the idea of thinking that my lettuce really enjoys playing on the "sit n spin."

The item itself is very simple and fun to use.  Sometimes I get a little frustrated with the colander, since I have to kind of work harder to get all the small bits washed out, but that is a small price to pay. One thing that I had been wondering about, though, was the top portion, where the spinning happens.  Over the past months, I never have felt like I could clean that as well as I would have liked, and I thought, "Hey, it would be really cool if this piece can come apart."

Pop. 

Just by playing with the lid a little bit, I realized that indeed, the top did separate into a couple of parts that immediately made cleaning almost fun.  I dug out the user's guide again, just to see what I had overlooked months ago, but never found a picture illustrating how one took the top apart.  Alas, it seems some technical writers believe certain things to be intuitive. 

And of course, this is exactly why I never looked for an indicator to light up telling me when the lettuce is clean. 

See you out there.
bryan



 

Deliberate Dairy Dreaming? Don't Think So

For the past week or so, I have cut back on visits to the pub.  It is not just that I wanted to reduce my intake of beer, but I think I was also feeling just a wee bit antisocial.  Spending a few quiet nights at home is never really a bad thing, in my opinion.  Besides, it is not as if I want to become a hermit.  It is simply an act of taking time for myself and being a little quiet.

One or two evenings, I watched a couple of football matches via a streaming website, and other nights I just played a DVD of an old film.  After all, I don't think one can ever watch "Rear Window" too many times.  Meanwhile, my couch beverage of choice turned out to be milk.

Now, I have always been a huge fan of milk; I am probably in the category of "chugger." (note - I just now did a google search and was mildly surprised to find a wikipedia article about milk chugging.  I, however, am referring more to the fact that I simply like milk).  At any rate, I found myself drinking a liter or so almost each evening I stayed a home.  This meant that I needed to head to the grocery store more frequently, but no matter.

What I did not expect was the impact the increase in lactose (and the reduction in grains) would have on my sleep.  Multiple times I went to bed, fell asleep, then woke up after what felt like 7 or 8  hours, only to find that I had been asleep for only 2 or 3.  The most recent instance happened just last night.  I went to bed at a reasonable 10h30 and was awakened by my neighbors, who were arguing in the next flat.

My neighbors are a young couple who moved in at the beginning of summer.  They are nice enough people, but after the first couple of weeks, I really did not see them so much as heard them, and rather often, at that.  I quickly realized that they both are argumentative, and neither seems to be particularly aware of how loud they tend to be.  Last night was particularly entertaining as the argument (like all of them:  petty) was a lively discussion about their shoes and where to put them.  The guy was making a point about sweaty feet and how that would not be very pleasant to have all the shoes in the bedroom, while the girl was explaining that by keeping the window open, there would be enough fresh air to help eliminate odor, if any.

At the time, I thought that they both were arguing as part of their morning routine, as I think one of them has just started a new job, meaning that they leave the house around 6 or 6h30 in the morning.  I was about to start my own routine to rouse myself for the start of the day and was surprised when I reached over to check the clock on my phone and found it was only 1h30 in the morning.  I had only been asleep for 3 hours!

I actually got up and went into the kitchen.  I almost took a slug of milk, but thankfully stopped myself, and opted instead for a ciggy on the balcony.  That turned out to be a poor decision, as my neighbors window was open, and I could clearly hear them continuing their flippant remarks.  In fact, I am surprised that everyone who lives in the vicinity wasn't up, it was so loud.  Many folks know that my back balcony looks onto a scene not dissimilar from that of  "Rear Window," and as it is normally pretty quiet, any kind of disturbance really stands out.  I thought about this for a few minutes as I finished smoking, remembering a recent early morning when I sat on my balcony, cup of coffee in hand, thinking how absolutely still it was.

So, I returned to bed, read for a few minutes, and finally fell back to sleep.  As I enjoyed my Zzzzs, I found myself dreaming about getting myself stuck in the little cellar opening that every bar in my neighborhood has.  This opening is where the beer delivery guy drops the kegs into the cellar, and I have always found the process pretty fascinating (albeit practical).  OK, it does not take much to fascinate me, but in this particular situation I was finding myself at the center of things.  Somehow, I had managed to get myself lodged into the space where I could no longer move.  I could not back out of the hole, and I could not climb out onto the street.  Things did not get better when one of the kegs suddenly opened and I was being flooded by the local pilsner.

With that, I found myself awake, and was glad to find that it was just coming 7am, my normal wake up hour.  Like with most of my dreams, no matter how vivid certain parts are, the beginnings and endings always seem to elude me.

Take last week for example.  There I was sleeping soundly, dreaming away, when I found myself accidentally breaking the flat screen television at a house while attending a party hosted by the German midfielder of Arsenal.  Why I was invited to the party (or how I got there), I have no idea, but I remember thinking, "Gosh, I had not planned for this particular cash outlay" after I returned home and placed an order for a replacement via Amazon.  I was, however, quite touched at the nice thank-you note that the guy sent me...

As if that incident weren't enough, one more dream from last week stuck with me.  Somehow, I was standing on a wobbly balcony on the 5th floor an apartment building.  I am almost certain it was Chris who was standing next to me, or at least he was until he jumped off and then made a gymnastic landing worthy of an Olympic medal on the ground below.  The crowd of people who witnessed this all burst into applause, and continued to cheer as he signed a few autographs, then effortlessly threw his ink pen up to me, still standing there five stories above.  Of course I caught the pen with both hands behind my back (and my eyes closed), and that's when I woke up.

So, here's to a nice bizarre start to October.

see you out there
bryan

B Continuing To Be

Almost immediately after my last post, it started raining, and has pretty much continued to rain each day since then.  Along with the rain came a significant drop in temperature.  Normally, I would say that this kind of weather suits me just fine, and for the first few days I was pretty delighted. 

However, when I woke up one Saturday morning feeling that my back wasn't quite right, I got a little discouraged.  I have had some issues with my back throughout most of this year, and had been enjoying a good period of "back to normal," if you can excuse the pun.  During that weekend, I elected to skip any visits to the gym, and likewise didn't do any of the little exercises that I tend to do each day on the mat on my living room floor.  My PT had constantly reminded me that I needed to listen to my body, and I have really been heeding his advice. 

After a couple of days, I actually thought things were getting worse, which kind of spooked me.  During the summer as I finished my physical therapy,  I willed myself to find ways to avoid future back problems altogether.  Perhaps this was slightly over ambitious, as my PT had warned me that it was possible that I would experience some issues, but at any rate I was feeling a bit down last week.  True, the discomfort I was feeling in my back was NOTHING compared to what I went through four or five months ago, but I was still really irritated by the setback. 

I decided that a certain part of my back discomfort was coming from the sudden colder weather.  However, I am aware of various scientific studies that suggest that there is no correlation between increased back pain and dramatic temperature change.  Bearing this in mind, I also realized that there could be some displaced anger that was giving me the aches in my back.  Taking advantage of working from home, I spent quite a few minutes over the next several days just lying on my floor and just trying to be present. 

During the past couple of years, I have become more and more interested in this concept.  I still have a lot more to learn and experience on the subject, but last week seemed to be another milestone reached.  By the latter half of the week, after multiple sessions on my floor, I did feel calmer, and I noticed that my back pain was decreasing.   Today, almost one week later, there is still a bit of discomfort but things are certainly better than a week and half ago. 

I did not intend to spend so much time discussing my back issues in this piece, but rather focus more on the "being present" aspect.  Lying on the floor in my living room and trying to clear my mind, to be present, it is rather an interesting experience.  Last week, for example, while on the floor, I found myself thinking about some toys that I played with as a child.  Fisher-Price Adventure People first came on the market when I was around six years old, and I can still remember getting my first set of action figures.  I continued to think about all the great times I had playing with these toys.  They kept me occupied for hours and hours. 

Why did I think of Adventure People last week?  I suppose it had to do with the exercise of clearing my mind, which allowed me to recall some vivid memories from my childhood.  This wasn't so much about finding a happy place as simply being present.  True, it was more pleasant to think about those toys than to think about how poorly Arsenal have been playing in recent weeks, or why I get so agitated by one of my repair partners who never can seem to follow the documented process. 

I usually play my best piano when my mind is completely clear, and while I often use piano playing to help clear my mind, I am starting to better understand this concept of being present.  Too often, when I feel uptight, it impacts my playing.  I mentioned this a couple of weeks ago when Nadja had to sit on the balcony while I sat at the piano a few rooms away.   Although I have no tremendous desire to perform publicly, I would like to feel totally relaxed, comfortable, free, and present while playing a piece or two for someone, who could actually sit in the same room.  

Like I said, I am still working on this concept, but it is making for yet another enlightening experience, and I continue to learn about myself.  That is a good thing.

I have to accept who I am, and while I have always thought that I am pretty well versed in this understanding, I recognize that I need to continue on trying to be the best B I can be. 

It's better for me to be B.  No question.

see you out there
bryan

Taking Time to Celebrate and Remember Key People in My LIfe

I quite like being outside during a rainstorm, and over the past few weeks I have had six chances to be outside.  Five of those times were really pleasant, and more than make up for the one time that sucked.  And truthfully, the one time that sucked was not all that bad, just a bit inconvenient. I had been across town for a meeting, and as I was getting ready to walk to the U-Bahn stop, it started pouring.  I tried to wait it out for a few minutes, but then sucked it up and walked through the streets to the station, getting pretty soggy along the way. 

The other five times were great.  Two of those times, I was standing outside the pub, safely under the large umbrella covering the tables.  From my dry vantage point, I could sip my beer and watch all the people who had forgotten their rain gear dashing home through the puddles. 

The three best times, in my opinion, were when I was at home sitting on my balcony, cup of coffee in hand, enjoying the closeness to nature.  My balcony is already one of my favorite spots in my flat, and even more so when it's really coming down.  (German lesson for the day:  Es regnet junge Hunde...pretty much similar to the English expression)

I find it very peaceful and relaxing when it rains, and I tend to need all the help I can get when finding ways to relax and find peace.  On one of the mornings I sat outside, I allowed my mind to settle down and I simply tried to be present.  I had some Einaudi playing in the background, and listening and reflecting helped me have an epiphany: I knew what I could give my grandmother for her upcoming birthday. 

Sure, I am very fortunate to have some very good friends and close family.  My grandmother has always stood out to me as an exceptionally wonderful human being.  There are few people who are so loving and supportive as she is.  If I am having a bad day, I simply need think of her and I find  immediate comfort.  If I am having a good day, I think of her, and the day just gets better.  How cool is that?

A few weeks back, I played a few pieces for Nadja on the piano, and her feedback also helped me decide that I should make a little playlist for my Grandmother and send her some mp3s of stuff I have been working on.  Even though I would not be there to celebrate personally, I could at least share some happy Grandmother thoughts (and tunes) via email. 

Over the next days, I spent a lot of time practicing and getting my playlist sorted.   I selected seven pieces and hammered away to get them to a level that I deemed acceptable for public hearing.  The irony is that I do not do so well playing in public (hence the reason Nadja sat on the balcony when I played for her from my living room: somehow after all these years I still struggle to perform in front of a live audience).  This actually extends even to when I am recording the piece onto a digital track.  As soon as I hit the "record" button, I almost immediately play a wrong note or chord.  Thus, I need a few takes to get a piece just right. 

It's funny, playing piano is very relaxing to me, but it takes me a bit before I can feel fully relaxed and totally engrossed in the music, forgetting anything and everything (and everyone) around me and simply being present.  To a great extent, I thank my piano teacher for helping me with this.  Mrs. Lipsett not only was instrumental in teaching me music theory, but she helped me learn how to feel the music.  I think she recognized my aptitude early on, but she also knew how to nurture and encourage.  She would select pieces for me to learn, ones that would challenge me but also give me great reward.  Without her, I never would have gotten into guys like Czerny or Debussy. Likewise, I would not have developed such an appreciation for playing by ear.  I cannot express my gratitude enough for her influence on me. 

As I recorded my pieces, I reminded myself on how she would teach me to play a certain passage, or how to develop my technique.  It is always important to understand the notation, as it helps express the style.  I can still recall how she would help me visualize how to play staccato notes, legato notes; chord progressions; I think of this almost every time I play.  Those thoughts serve as homage to having such a wonderful teacher, a teacher that is still with me 30 years after I stopped taking lessons with her. 

 Early last Friday morning, I sent my recordings to my Grandmother; my way of wishing her a happy 101st birthday.  Later in the day, I called her on the telephone and congratulated  her personally. What a nice way to start the weekend, and I celebrated with her in spirit throughout the weekend, hoping she is enjoying listening to my gift. 

Alas, yesterday morning, I woke up to find an email from my mother, giving me the news that my piano teacher, Mrs. Lipsett, had died over the weekend.  She was a wonderful woman, an excellent teacher, and certainly helped me become who I am.  Thankfully, I can smile through my tears as I think of all the fond memories. 

So, I will finish this up and go play Ludovico Einaudi's "Experience." 

To know both my Grandmother and Mrs. Lipsett, it's an experience worth celebrating.

bryan

An Unusual PlayMobil Experience and More Ohrwurm Attacks

Last weekend, Maria gave me a little PlayMobil character that Chris's daughter had accidentally taken from their flat during their July visit.  She had given the toy, which was a little girl on a skateboard, to Maria, who returned it to me so that I could return it to the actual little girl (sans skateboard) whose toy it actually was. 

The couple that rented their flat out to Chris had a very impressive collection of PlayMobil stuff for their young daughter.  Part of me thought that one little character probably would not be missed, but I still felt it best to try and return it to its rightful owner.  The problem was, I do know this family, even though the woman works in the restaurant across the street from my house. 

Monday evening as I walked towards the Kiosk to meet up with Mono and everyone, I debated whether to stick my head in the restaurant and ask if the woman was working, but could not figure out how to approach the task;  how exactly does one walk into a really crowded restaurant, hold up a PlayMobil character, and ask, "Hi, is Angela working?  I wanted to give her this toy back."

I was probably overthinking the whole thing, but no matter.  When passing another pub on my walk down the street, I glanced over and noticed a couple having dinner with their young daughter.  Although I had never actually met the couple who rented their flat to Chris, I had a vague idea of what the woman looked like, and the woman sitting in the pub seemed to be her.  Besides, the daughter had a scooter parked at the table, along with various other toys to keep her occupied, and that fit with the type of girl who had the entire PlayMobil collection (from 1970-2017) at her disposal.

After a quick greeting to Mono (and a pull on my beer), I explained the situation, which seemed the right thing to do as he was with me when Maria had brought the toy back at the weekend.  I went back to the pub and had a quick word with the waiter, who confirmed that they were the people I was looking for.  I dashed home and upstairs to get the toy, then returned to where the family was sitting. (This took all of 4 minutes.  One has to understand where I live in relation to these pubs and the Kiosk....mere steps away)

I approached their table with a smile on my face, then proceeded to make a complete fucking idiot of myself as I tried to greet them, ask if they were who I thought they were, and introduce myself, all in a non-threatening way, while trying not to disturb their dinner.  Unfortunately, everything I wanted to say all came out at once, and could not have been more incoherent. 

The husband and wife gave me blank stares, and I was just glad that I had not been holding the PlayMobil character in my hand; it was tucked in my pocket.   I tried again, taking breaths this time, and I was relieved when the father started nodding his head with the understanding that I was the local "friend" of  their recent AirBnB guests.  We made quick introductions, and then I ceremoniously placed the toy on the table in front of the daughter, who hardly looked up from the game she was playing on her tablet. 

The mother then asked me a rather obvious question, "How did you know we were here?"

Rather than risk further embarrassment, I kept my words as brief as possible, saying something about the size of the neighborhood.  Then, I wished them a pleasant evening, and humbly walked back to the safety of the Kiosk and my bottle of beer. 

Although it wasn't really any big deal, it did make for kind of an interesting start to the week. 

The rest of the week has been fairly uneventful.  One evening I inadvertently made a video Whatsapp call to my father, which allowed us to briefly catch up.  I skipped the story about the return of the PlayMobil character, which was probably for the best. 

Finally, a few words about music, especially those tunes that get stuck in my head.  I continue to spend  several hours a week at the piano, so most of the time I am thinking about various melodies composed by the artist I am studying.  A lot of his stuff is a bit complicated, so I am constantly thinking my way through arpeggio progressions and trying to figure out how I get my fingers can play what my brain is telling me. 

Having a bunch of melodies composed by Ludovico Einaudi in my head is quite a pleasant experience, and is pretty easy to explain.  However, I am still searching for a plausible explanation as to why, when I am really concentrating on an excel spreadsheet or analyzing data, I always seem to whistle the theme to the Smurfs under my breath.   Equally mysterious to me is why I start humming "Good King Wenceslas" every time I go to the grocery store, regardless of the season.  

Ah well, somebody has to be the enigma known as Bryan, and it might as well be me. 

Meanwhile, over the last couple of weeks, I have started thinking about a song from the 70s that I used to hear regularly on the radio when I was playing in my room.  The particular song was in no way a favorite of mine, but I just remember hearing it with regularity when I was eight or nine years old.  Obviously, it was popular, but there is really no explanation as to why the song popped back into my head forty years later. 

I am not a user of any of the song recognition apps that are out there, like Shazam or Soundhound, and furthermore, I really only had the saxophone solo melody as a reference; the rest of the song was pretty generic, at least in my head.  In fact, many songs I heard on mainstream radio at that age all sort of ran together.  It would be another year or two before I consciously was following music and music groups.  Until then, I could only vaguely recall certain group names.

But, this song has stuck with me and was starting to drive me nuts. When I woke up yesterday morning, I knew I had to find out the name of the song and the artist.  Pronto. 

I made myself a coffee and sat down to do a quick internet search.  I found a couple of compilations of 70s Hits, but none of the artists or titles seemed familiar . Of course, I knew neither the title nor the artist, so to what extent this "familiarity" would prove relevant was wide open.   I managed to find a compilation that someone had put up on youtube, which yielded a result:  the song I was looking for was the third track in the compilation. 

Unfortunately, the guy who posted the compilation apparently put together the mix himself and did not bother to list the tracks or artists. 

Bugger.

Still, I persisted, and 10 minutes later found the same song and thankfully, the track listing.

Mystery solved.

Later on yesterday afternoon, I was still thinking about the song as I walking down the street.  I had never heard of the artist, and certainly did not know the song title.  Not back then, anyway. I had always known the song as "that song where the saxophone goes wa-wah-wah-wa-wa-waaaahhhh."

Amazingly enough, I was passing a couple of folks who were doing something with their mobile phone.  Perhaps I did not realize that I had been humming the saxophone solo out loud, but a few steps further along, I heard one remark to the other, "Hey, do you know who Gerry Rafferty is? And why the hell is this song "Baker Street" coming up on my phone?"

Hmm.  Probably best to get started on the weekend.

see you out there
bryan

Parental Sightings and Celebrating the Kerb

"Please, call me Gordon."

"OK, Mr. Lipsett," I responded, realizing that I would never be able to make the cross-over to the use of first names with people in my parents generation, and certainly not with the husband of my piano teacher.

That conversation took place about 30 years ago, when I was back in town from college for the weekend and was greeting the couple at church.

Sure, I have related this story several times over the years, and I always found it fascinating and somewhat humbling that I have still never been able to make this switch.  I simply address people that I met during my childhood and adolescence as Mr. and Mrs.; it makes no difference how old we happen to be now.  The gender gap still remains, even if I met these people 30 or 40 years ago.

My parents have made a few comments about this over the years.  During my 20s and early 30s when we would be out and about together, I would frequently hear my father introduce himself to a friend of mine (in my age group) as Sam, which came as no real surprise.  In fact, any time that I would meet a parent of a friend of mine that I did not ever know during my school years, I would also start in with them on a first name basis.

I remember one time that my folks and I were debating this topic at the Old Monk, and I turned to my buddy Pablo and said, "Hey Pablo, my dad has a question for you."

"Sure, Mr. Barlow, what would you like to know?" my friend asked.

10 minutes when Chris arrived to the pub, he greeted my parents with a big "Hello Mr and Mrs Barlow," which helped me prove my point.

"See, mom, it is not just me that does this," I explained, feeling really grateful that I was not the only guy who still seemingly acts like a little kid around adults.  The actual age one is has less to do with it; for me, it's really more about the situation and the feeling.

True, I do recognize that it may sound rather formal when addressing someone as Mr or Mrs.  I was recently in a meeting with a woman who is a few years older than me, and she pointed out that she expected to use the formal German communication, which puts us in the Herr Barlow or Frau So and So mode.   Of course, this is pretty standard in Germany.  It is normal that colleagues at work, regardless of their age, address one another formally.

I suspect it is partially for that reason that I still address a German friend's parents as Herr and Frau Losse.  That being said, the feeling that I have always had with them is that they are both very nurturing and caring parents, which basically indicates to me that, had I met them 30 some odd years ago with the Herr and Frau bit, I would never be able to change to a first name basis with them, even if they asked me to.  In fact, I think one time Nadja's mom did ask me to call by her first name, and I, of course, responded with, "OK, Frau Losse."

Maybe it is a bit of nostalgia, or perhaps it is just a bit of willful innocence on my part.  But, despite not being a parent, I greatly respect the art of parenting and am particularly touched when I see how parents interact with not only their offspring but also the friends of their offspring.  There is quite a bit of comfort I get from observing these relationships, especially when I can immediately see how much love exists.

We all have probably had our "roll the eyes" moments when our parents have done something to embarrass us, and maybe sometimes our opinions are not the same as our parents, but it is still family.  Besides, I certainly am aware that I have embarrassed my parents on frequent occasions, though I hope that those times are becoming less frequent.  Regardless, the love and the nurturing remains. This is really key for me and I have a lot of experiences recently which continue to keep me feeling warm and fuzzy.

As I have written in the past few weeks, the summer has been pretty good, almost exceptional.  One of the events that helps bring the summer to a close is our local festival:  Bernemer Kerb.  This year marks the 410th (yep, you read that correctly) year of the celebration.  I may have only participated in the past 10-11 years, but I got here as quickly as I could.

OK, the celebration involves rather large amounts of alcohol, but it is really a festive atmosphere, especially when the weather is nice and everyone comes out to enjoy the scene.  Last Saturday, immediately after finishing my last post, I went to the gym, got in a little workout, then found myself wandering over to the pub to catch the second half of a football match.  As much as I enjoyed having a few beers on an early Saturday afternoon, I realized that the early start would make things a little complicated later on the evening; the parade itself wasn't going to start for another few hours.

Na ja, it is afternoons like these when one simply throws caution to the wind (and the rain, as it were).  By parade time, I was still holding up, but knew I would not be the last guy standing.  Fortunately at that moment, I was still able to stand, and spent a few minutes catching up with some friends as we watched the floats pass by.  Maybe float is not quite the right word, but at least we watched the wagons roll by, filled with revelers (many of which clearly started their beer consumption before I had) throwing various gifts to the crowd: candy, little trinkets, etc.

I was standing with 3 couples who all had young children, ranging in age from 6 months to 6 years.
Not only do I know these kids, but I also know their parents, as they have been around since my arrival in Frankfurt 11 years ago.  Back then, we spent a lot of time closing the bars and staying out too late.  As fun as that was at the time, I quite like the way things are now, where these new parents are more interested in nurturing their little ones.  This may be seem like a very normal thing, but over the years I have sadly realized that it is not something to be taken for granted, and the facts are:  too often what I always assumed to be a normal relationship with parents and their kids, a relationship of love, is not necessarily the case.

At any rate, watching the kids laugh and clap their hands (OK the 6 month old was taking a nap) as they tried to catch the candy being tossed to them was quite endearing.   They were in their own little worlds, but a world where they knew their parents were right there with them, loving them.

I happen to have met the parents of all three couples, and although I don't know all of them that well, I always had the feeling that those parents are similar to my own; loving, caring parents.  To see their children (my friends) behave in similar fashion does not really surprise me, but it still impresses me.

Feeling comfortably numb (part beer, part nice family experience), I continued celebrating the Saturday evening, chatting with everyone who came out to the festival.  It is always a nice chance to see old friends while making new friends at the same time.  Sobriety is optional, and what is always funny is that everyone seems to double their normal intake without getting completely waxed.

That being said, my shutters came down around 10pm, which, looking back, wasn't THAT bad of a run, since I had started about 2pm.

Of course, Sunday morning I woke up feeling like I would need to stay in bed for most of the day.  Unfortunately, I had made some plans to meet up with a colleague during the early afternoon, and I also had tentative plans for dinner.   It took a lot of effort on my part, but I found myself back in the pub Sunday lunch time to watch a match with a friend and his wife.  I opted for water instead of beer, which created a lot of confusion for the staff of the pub; this was highly out of character.

However, I noticed that most of the staff were also looking a little tired, so they appreciated my condition.  There was a certain amount of hangover that was contributing to how I felt, but I was also very keen to avoid a repeat of the previous day, where by 17h30 I was already 6 beers in.  At this point, I was still expecting a text message from Chris's parents telling me when they would get to town.

During half time of the match, I stood outside talking to one of the girls who works at the pub.  She had come up with her own kids to enjoy a little Sunday afternoon sunshine.  This girl is rather striking and tends to receive a lot of attention from the male patrons of the pub.  As pretty as she is, what I particularly like about her is how she handles being a mother.  Her kids are one and seven, and the daughter was running around helping to serve drinks to other customers, reminding  me of last month when SC was doing the same thing.  The one year old was just being cute and cuddly, keeping his mother occupied as he played with anything within his reach.

While I haven't met Anna's parents, I get the feeling that she, too, grew up in a loving family environment.  It is not just that she is a nice person, but it is how she is a nice mother.

One of my other friends who also works at the pub, another of my favorites, equally strikes me as coming from a very loving family background.  She was overjoyed to meet my parents during their recent visit, and went out of her way to introduce me to her father when he visited Frankfurt.  Her father doesn't speak any English, but as we conversed in Spanish I realized why Maria is how she is:  a really really nice person who clearly grew up in a loving environment.  And, the way she dotes on kids tells me that she will continue in the same fashion should she become a mother.

The positive vibes I was getting on Sunday (combined with multiple glasses of water) helped me feel much better than I had earlier in the day, but I was still rather relieved when Mr. McKee phoned to tell me that they would NOT be able to come across town Sunday evening after all.  Instead, we made plans to meet up on Monday afternoon.

I was looking forward to seeing Chris's parents.  It may sound a little strange, but it is a nice feeling  to show people that you have known for a long time a different side of yourself.  In my case, I have known Chris's mom and dad since 1988, not long after I first met Chris.  I can remember sacking Mrs. McKee's groceries (we both worked at a grocery store.  Albertston's - it's your store), just like Chris remembers checking the groceries for my mother.  Over the years, we saw each other regularly, especially since I was living onsite at Goliad, usually there every time the McKees came to visit.

Probably the last time I saw them was about 4 or 5 five years ago during my stateside Christmas visit.  It was a rather brief few minutes at Goliad, during which we did the quick "how are things going in Germany?" exchange, where one usually gives just a simple "things are great" response.  Thus, to have the opportunity to actually show them my neighborhood personally would have a bit more relevance.

When I first received the email from Mr McKee,  I did not recognize the name, pretty much because I do not recall ever having heard the first names of either of Chris's parents.  It wouldn't have mattered much anyway, since I have always addressed them as Mr. and Mrs, for the reasons I gave at the beginning of this piece.  When I responded to the email, I gave my mobile number along with my invitation that they head to my side of town from their hotel on Monday afternoon.

Mr. McKee phoned me around 16h Monday afternoon with the news that they were about 10 minutes away from me, so I quickly dried myself off (I had been in the shower), dressed and walked down to Bornheim Mitte to find them at the taxi stand.  They had taken my instructions literally and were just standing on the street.

Another couple was with the McKees and after quick hugs with Mr. and Mrs McKee, I was introduced to them.  They gave me their first names, which I expected, but unfortunately I almost immediately forgot both names.  I hoped that during the course of the evening, Mr. and Mrs McKee would use their friends names so that I could quietly refresh my memory.  This created a little bit of confusion for me, since I wasn't all together sure that I knew Mrs. McKee's first name, either.

In the end, it worked out just fine.

We spent a few minutes walking around the market plaza in Bornheim. I showed everyone where the younger McKees had resided during July, and pointed out a few landmarks.  Fortunately, the weather was nice, but that particular evening there were not SO many people out and about for the Kerb fesitval.  Said festival runs from Friday to Wednesday, with Friday and Saturday being particularly crowded days, followed closely by Sunday.  Monday and Tuesday are more quiet, and then Wednesday erupts into a complete blow out. Being Monday, we had a better opportunity to visit and relax.

Both couples had been on a tour over the past couple of weeks and would be returning to the states the following morning.  Understandably, they were a bit travel weary.  Thus, I elected to have us meander down Berger Strasse, giving them a feel for the neighborhood.   We got to my corner, where I showed them my apartment building, then we took a seat outside the pub and ordered a few drinks.
I had to chuckle to myself a little bit because everyone perused the menu to try and decide what to have.  Mr. McKee jumped right into a Hefeweizen, his wife opted for prosecco.  Mr. McKee's friend took my suggestion of a Kilkenny, and finally, his wife, who had asked me about a light beer, took a Helles.  Again, I was momentarily confused, since American light beer (like Bud Light, Miller Lite, etc) is not available here.  I did not want to insult someone I had just met by berating them on their beverage choice, but I quickly realized that she simply wanted a lighter German beer.

We had a nice visit chatting about their recent cruise through Austria, and I was able to give a little background on what I was doing in Germany.  The two couples had known each a long time and I was reminded of friends who would travel with my parents from time to time.  I am aware that not everyone travels the same way.  Some people prefer a more structured (safe) environment, while others tend to go for the balls out adventure.  These folks were perhaps a bit more conservative than my parents, but it is all relative at the end of the day.  I am always impressed when someone at least shows the willingness.  Clearly they had all had a good time over the past two weeks.

From conversations with Chris, I already knew which topics with his parents were best avoided, and when said topics came up anyway, I gently gave my perspective and quickly moved us along to safer territory.  I fully respect that everyone has their opinions and despite the respect we have for one another, we will never always agree on everything, from our views of the world to something has simple as our favorite foods.

Mr. McKee and I had a second beer at the pub, which was really no surprise.  Then, Mr. McKee correctly assumed that I probably was needing a cigarette break, so I slipped around the corner for a bit of a puff, leaving them to chat a bit with Anna, who was working that evening.

Upon my return to the table, someone said, "Bryan, she is cute."

"Indeed she is," I responded, "and she is also a really loving mother."

We paid up and walked a few steps to one of my favorite little German pubs, where we found a table outside.   I explained the menu to everyone, we got the orders placed, and we continued enjoying  our little evening in Bornheim.

I was not allowed to pay anything, which touched me.  My parents do the same thing and enjoy treating my friends for the odd meal when they visit.  But, the McKees and their friends were so thankful that I had taken time to show them a few things around the neighborhood.  I struggled to express that I was equally thankful and glad to have seen the McKee seniors and to have met their friends.

For a last little moment, I trooped everyone over to a group of my friends who had already gathered for Kiosk Abend.  Those guys had already seen the younger McKees the previous month, and I cracked up as the introductions (by first name and last name) were made.

"Hello Mr and Mrs McKee, hello Mr. and Mrs xxxx"  said Teddy, Mono and Danny.  Seems it's not just Chris, Pablo, and myself that do this....

A taxi was driving by, so I hailed it, and informed the driver to take my guests back to their hotel at the airport.   We hugged goodbye, and I wished everyone safe travels, then tucked in to continue my Kiosk Abend.  A very nice evening all around.

When Bernemer Mittwoch came around, I started cautiously.  The evening tends to be long, and I wanted to try and pace myself.  The problem has always been that the party happens right outside my front door.  Thus, even if I wasn't out on the street, a few thousand people WERE.  So, sleeping is not really an option.

I finished my work day around 6h15, and headed out to meet and greet.  I ran into an old friend of mine who no longer lives in the neighborhood.  We still see each other with regularity, but certainly not like we did when he lived around the corner.  As it were, his mother was visiting from London, and it was nice to catch up with her.  I first met Carol about 7 or 8 years ago when Damon first moved to Frankfurt.  We had an interesting evening one night in the pub, where she expressed her appreciation that she was able to meet friends of her son in Germany.  I was reminded of my own mother, since both of them live further away from one of their kids, but that never stops them from caring and wanting the best for their children.  Once again, another sign of parenting at its best.  Yeah, Carol is wacky and much more outgoing than my own mom, but her love for her son and his friends is felt just as strongly as the love my mother has for my sister and me.

On this specific evening, I mentioned that I had just had dinner with the folks of a friend of mine, and reminded her of our conversation from years ago.  I appreciate it when parents want to be parents, and care about their kids and who their kids know.

A couple of hours later, there were many more people on the street and things were getting really crowded.  I met up with Bettina and her daughter Elena.  Elena was one of the mothers whose 2 kids were watching the parade the previous Saturday.  Elena's partner is an old friend of mine that I met early on in my Frankfurt experience and we have remained friends through the years.  He was one of the guys that I used to close bars with back in the early days.  Now, he and Elena have two really nice little kids, and I see them quite regularly, fortunately because Elena's mother lives down the street from me.  I am quite fortunate to know these people, as they are very genuine and pleasant.  One of the most striking things is that Bettina, who is maybe 8 years older than me, is clearly a wonderful caring mother, and in turn, a particularly loving grandmother.   The kids are both quite charming (though the 2 year old is obviously more communicative) and it is so apparent that they are being raised in such a nurturing, loving environment.

 A few weeks ago, I had a conversation with Elena and her mother about parenting and about how cool I thought they were, particularly in their style with their kids.  Seeing this in multiple generations just makes it all the more special.  Sure, my sister is a very loving mother, just like her own mother, but it is still refreshing for me to experience this outside of my own family.  Indeed, knowing people like this helps me remember that there is still a lot of good in the world, regardless of the age or the nationality of the people.

We have endured far too many really shitty things in the world in recent days, weeks, and months.  The madness that took place in Virginia last week, or the awful attacks in Spain in the past 24 hours, none of it makes any sense.


I purposely try to think of the loving examples I get to experience, particularly to remind myself that I am so fortunate to be around people who are trying to help make the world a better place, despite the dark times.

I will keep these thoughts with me as we start the weekend.  What else can I do?

see you out there
bryan

Just Another Quiet Start to the Weekend

I have had to keep looking at the calendar the past couple of days, just to remind myself what month we are in.  The picture hanging on the wall in my hallway of the baby goat wearing a sweater  states clearly that we are in the month of August (calendar courtesy of my mother, who appreciates giving calendars at Christmas, whether they be ones with scenes of waterfalls, distant mountains, or rather small farm animals), but the past 48 hours have been nothing but cold and rainy.

As much as I look forward to autumn, I am actually caught a little by surprise.  The summer has not been unbearably hot, and I have sort of enjoyed hanging around outside wearing shorts and enjoying the long evenings, despite my preference for cooler temperatures.  The local festival in my neighborhood is just starting up, people are starting to get excited about the start of the football season (both Bundesliga and Premiership), and hell, a lot of kids are still on their summer holidays, so why is it suddenly feeling like the middle of November?  I am not quite ready for it; I want a few more weeks of shirt sleeve weather.

Last weekend, when it was still kind of balmy, I spent an afternoon outside in the sunshine visiting with various friends, many of which kept referring to the recent visit of the folks from the big house on Goliad.  "Wow, your friend's daughter was exceptionally good with Aria," remarked Aria's mother and grandmother as we stood at the Tonne outside the pub.  "Indeed she was," I responded, watching Aria splash in the little fountain a few steps away from our position.  "And, she also liked playing in that water, too."

The past week started like any other; I was already looking forward to the upcoming weekend before I had really even logged into Monday morning's emails.  Things are a little quiet at work right now, due to the vacation period, so I have been taking advantage of the slowdown and spending a few more minutes each day at the piano.   My grandmother's birthday is coming up in a few weeks, and while I do not think I can surpass the gift I gave her last year to celebrate her 100th birthday, it did occur to me that perhaps sending her a few mp3s of some pieces I have learned might be fitting.

So, I have been doing a bit of practicing, and even managed to get a few bits recorded.  To celebrate my progress, I elected to arrange a gastronomic treat and make some beef nachos for myself.  Over the past months I have really cut down on meats, preferring to load up on salad as much as possible.  With the exception of the time I spent with the "I want Schnitzel" gang during July, I have held pretty true to my diet, with relatively decent results.  So, a one time splurge with some ground beef and queso?  Why not?

As I whisked through the supermarket Thursday, I picked up the needed ingredients.  I had actually been awakened Wednesday night when the idea came up in my dreams, and I actually got out of bed and made a special grocery list.   Everything was going fine in the grocery store aisle, until I realized that they were out of the queso that I normally use.  (Yes, I have made myself nachos here before, but it has been a while.)  Well, I am going to write this off as very bad spontaneous judgement, but I decided that I could make do with a sort of artificial cheese sauce that I found on the "American" shelf in the grocery store.  This shelf is where they stock things like: one flavor of Pop-Tarts, microwave popcorn, "hotter than hell" barbecue sauce, and various other overly processed foods that people correctly associate with the American diet.

I examined the little plastic bottle of cheese sauce in hopes I could understand what the contents actually were, then threw the bottle in my basket and headed for the checkout.   Once I got home, I did a quick online search to try and compare the product that I purchased with what I had wanted to purchase.  You see, I had my heart set on these nachos, and was pretty sure that I was still going to be able to make it work.  My logic was based on the assumption that things like Velveeta (which doesn't even exist in Europe), my normal queso sauce (currently out of stock at the store), and the item I had just purchased were all pretty similar:  all of them look gross, feel gross (to the point of disgusting), and it goes without saying that they easily are designed to survive any nuclear testing.  My glimmer of hope had mostly to do with my experience with two of three products.  One does not grow up in Texas without eating (and loving) queso made from Velveeta, and my experience with my normal queso sauce has always been adequate.  In short, the stuff looks like shit and is really bad for you, but you eat it anyway. And like it.

Unfortunately, door number three turned out to be a real disaster.

Perhaps I should have already sensed there would be problems when I read on the label that it was OK to put the plastic bottle in the microwave to heat up the cheese sauce.  I sort of thought, "wouldn't that make it more toxic?" even though I proceeded to try anyway, but only for about 20 seconds. Of course, 20 seconds did sod all, so I tried squeezing a portion onto a safe dish, which, after about 90 seconds at 600W resulted in something that looked just like what I did for my 4th grade science project at school.

Even then, I tasted a bit just to see.

Bad idea.

The beef was already browned and simmering on the stove top, and I stood there trying to figure out what to do, thinking perhaps rereading the label on the bottle would help.  When I realized that the "Haltbar bis" date had expired right before my birthday a few months previously, I immediate chucked the whole thing into the bin.

So, that is how I came to have tostada chips covered in ground beef topped with jalapeños for dinner Thursday evening.

Yesterday, I woke up feeling very glad that I would not be spending the next three weeks on the Klo, and made the decision that a nice green salad would be perfect for my Friday evening dinner.

Friday brought not only the start of the Kerb, the local festival in my neighborhood, but also the opening of the English football league, with Arsenal playing at home to start the season.

Well, it rained pretty much the whole day, and while I was a bit excited about the start of the festival and the football, I found myself getting really cozy on the couch.  Instead of heading out for a handful of beers in the wet weather before the 20h45 televised kickoff, I found myself under a blanket, reading a book on the sofa.  I got my stream hooked up for match-time and felt very responsible (and sober) as the game started.  2 minutes into the game when Arsenal scored their first, I was pretty thrilled, as was Chris, who sent a text from the states.

2 Minutes later we were texting again, as Leicester got an easy equalizer.  We continued to text during the rest of the first half as the game (exciting as it was) continued.  Both teams went into the break at 2-2, and I tried to rally myself for a more positive second half.  It was either that or an early night reading my book.  In the end, Arsenal got a positive result, and I was glad that I stayed up long enough to help see them through.

So, I sit here Saturday morning, enjoying the coolness and gentle rain outside.  It's only just past 9am, but I have been up a couple of hours already; this happens when I get a decent sleep and part of me thinks that maybe a few more evenings skipping pints would be a good idea from time to time.

Quatsch.  It's the Kerb!  It is Saturday! I have got things to do, people to see, and maybe, just maybe, another attempt to satisfy my craving for nachos.

See you out there.
bryan

Looking to the Left

"I want chicken nuggets," said the youngest daughter of my friend Chris as we walked down the street from their flat.

The scene was this:  just a few hours earlier, Chris and his family had arrived on an international flight to Frankfurt, coming to live in my neighborhood for the month of July. Sure, it was lunchtime, and they were pretty tired after a long flight, during which no one really slept. So, we ventured out on to the plaza to find a little something to eat.

The problem was, I have never looked for chicken nuggets in Bornheim.  It's not that I don't like chicken nuggets, it's just that I don't really think of those when I go out to eat.  I quickly realized that I would need to get up to speed on what a typical 7 year old likes to eat, and likely what an 11 year old enjoys, also.  My experience with kids of this age is primarily through my nephew, who has always tended to be a bit picky. 

Fortunately, Chris was there and helped put things in perspective, which is basically just saying that anything and everything would be OK.  We found a little snack bar around the corner from their flat which did offer nuggets and sat outside in the sunshine for a little bit before I walked back home to continue my work day. 

The plan was simple:  the family of 5 would live in Germany for one month, experiencing things in a way that no 3 to 4 day visit ever really can offer.  It was more about hanging out in another type of environment as opposed to simply playing tourist.  Sure, a few day trips would be a part of the month, with maybe a couple of overnight visits to some places near Frankfurt.  Because kids were involved, the statement "all plans subject to change" was used rather often. But really, it was all about staying relaxed and not pushing things to the limit.  After all, this was no whirlwind sightseeing European vacation. 

My friends here in Bornheim were eagerly anticipating the arrival of my Dallas friends, particularly the kids who had not ever visited before.  A few folks were a bit surprised that my friends would be staying one month, since that is a little bit unusual.  Furthermore, some folks couldn't quite understand the attraction of Frankfurt, despite the fact that it happens to be home. Chris responded to these questions pretty directly.  He explained that during their brief visit last summer, they enjoyed meeting all of my friends and thoroughly enjoyed the neighborhood and its character.  Why wouldn't someone want to come and stay in Frankfurt for a month?

As usual, the gathering point was frequently my local pub, and over the course of the next several days as everyone got settled (and over their jet lag), we would meet up for a beer (or a sprite, depending on the age of the drinker) and find some place to grab a bite to eat.  The pub fare tended to go down well with the kids and we could always take advantage of the nice weather to sit outside, be a little active (loud) and enjoying chatting with my friends from the neighborhood. 

In summer, everyone wants to be outside because the weather is rather pleasant (at least, in comparison to the summer heat of Dallas).  Even though I prefer the autumn and winter seasons, I still enjoy being able to stay out a little later (since it stays light longer) in the evenings, despite the fact that this tends to increase the beer intake to some degree.  The fact that I have been able to enjoy the past month with close friends from my hometown just made things all that much better.  We had time to get properly caught up on things.  During my brief visits back to the states, we usually are able to hang out once or twice but it is always frantic and the time is too short.

We did not have that problem during this visit.  We wisely took the four weeks and just lived.
I was able to help offer guidance with the things like visits to the dry cleaners, which trains were best for visiting places like Köln or Heidelberg, the preferred laundry detergent to buy and where to buy it. As a small unplanned surprise, I arranged for my dentist to help with a broken tooth. (with kids, all plans are subject to change).

A friend of mine who has lived in Frankfurt the last 8 years decided he needed to leave Germany, so we had one or two evenings saying our farewells to him.  (a Ninja throwing star?  C'mon, really?)  Meanwhile, other friends came and went as they returned from their vacations and pretty much Chris and co. were able to experience a typical summer in my neighborhood. For me, it was a little atypical, for all the right reasons.

For example, I would join everyone for dinner several times a week.  Sometimes I had to help translate the menu and coordinate the ordering, which wasn't too stressful once I figured out that usually 3 people would be talking about 3 different things at once.  Spending time with younger people is not really something I get to do all that much, and at the beginning I was a little unsure of myself.  Sure, I have known this family for a really long time, but I was particularly fascinated by the various characters of each of the kiddos, all the more impressive since I know the parents so well.
I was very glad to play games of Solo (like Uno) and Charades with everyone while we waited on our food to arrive. Likewise, I was able to get regular reports from three different ages of what they had seen during the day or what they liked visiting. 

By the end of the second week, it was pretty much routine to know that just about every day I would be seeing the family from Goliad.  Monday nights are Kiosk Abend, and each Monday was represented by at least one McKee, if not everyone for just a brief moment. One Monday, we had to change our venue since the lady from our local Kiosk told me that she had to close early.  Our back up venue happens to be a few steps away from Chris's apartment, which turned out to be rather convenient.  The family had already gone upstairs, and Chris and I continued to have a little chat out on the street, several stories below.   We didn't immediately recognize that everyone upstairs was able to hear us, but later (quite late in the evening, actually), we needed to take advantage of this fact by calling up to an open window in hopes that someone would hear and respond.  You see, all the keys were upstairs, and at that point in the evening, the most logical solution was to have Regan drop the keys down to us below, which she did, which enabled Chris to enter the apartment building once we had finished our last, last, last beer of the evening.

 As the month continued, everyone found their stride and it seemed normal to have them in my neighborhood.  The youngest (chicken nugget fan) suddenly declared that she was quite fond of schnitzels, which I found quite charming.  Furthermore, she tended to tuck in and finish off most of an adult portion.  The middle daughter continued to have plenty of intelligent things to say, showing a maturity level much higher than her age, only to remind me of what being a kid is all about by stepping into a fountain, managing to soak her sock and shoe.  Bennett, meanwhile continued to be the B-man; he and I go way back.  I was honored to be with him when he drank his first Radler. 

Chris had told me that everyone was having a great time, and he hoped that the people he was meeting were recognizing how much that he was appreciating the opportunity and time in Bornheim. In the true sense of the statement, they were truly happy to be here.

The entire staff of the pub fell in love with the kids, which is why several patrons to the pub might have been a bit surprised when a "dance party" started up spontaneously a few times.  Not everyone is used to listening to songs like "I like sandwiches," or the "Num Num Num Num Num" song, but then again, they quickly realized that the 7 year old who was serving them their drinks was probably somewhat involved in the playlist.  Said 7 year old continued to work a few more times, earning some impressive tips along the way.

Last week, I had to go down to Munich for a company event. I suggested that Chris take everyone to Munich for a couple of days, and we decided to visit another little town together on the return.
From previous posts, readers will be aware that my job satisfaction is not particularly high at present.  I had actually considered skipping the company event until I chatted with a colleague who convinced me that I should attend, namely to finally meet some of the colleagues in person. 

For that reason alone, I did enjoy the quick trip to Munich last Thursday. I met some guys I have been working with for several years and it was nice to finally put faces to the voices I regularly hear through conference calls.  Alas, I was a little upset when our company president made a little speech those of us at the gathering.  His words were probably not intended to be so biting and they certainly weren't directed specifically to me.  Still, it left a bad taste with me, and I woke up feeling pretty down on Friday morning.  Fortunately, I was to meet up with Chris and family and take the train on to Würzburg.

Upon our arrival Friday afternoon in Würzburg, we walked to our hotel, then climbed a steep hill to the fortress that overlooks the city.  The kids were troopers, despite the 20 minute uphill hike and the small attack of wasps that hovered around our drinks as we sat outside a little snackbar.  When we walked back down, Lori and I elected to go find a suitable restaurant for our dinner that evening, while Chris and the kids stopped off at a playground for a few minutes.   This enable Lori and I to have a little one on one time in a pub that we passed as we "looked" for a restaurant. 

A bit later, we did actually find a pizzeria with a huge outdoor terrace, where we queued for a table. The service wasn't the best, but the pizzas were good and the company was brilliant.  Later, sans kids (who were semi tucked into bed), we returned to the pub for a couple of beers to wrap up the evening.

We returned to Frankfurt on Saturday afternoon and spent a good part of the rest of the weekend hanging around in the pub, primarily because the 7 year old "had" to work with her new best friend Maria, one of the staff. 

The week started with a hint of sadness; the month was just about over.  I could already see my 5 friends were going to experience a bit of emotion as they wound things down, but I could also see that about half of my neighborhood was going through the same thing.  And as for me, I knew I would be struggling.

Our final Kiosk Abend with guests was a success, and the next evening, we arranged to have a final dinner at the local Apfelwein retaurant across the street from my house (and pub). 

"I want a schnitzel," said the youngest, which came as no surprise.

During dinner, Chris asked everyone to say their favorite thing about the past four weeks.  I was glad to be a part of the experience, and I enjoyed hearing each perspective.  When you like everything, it is difficult to find that top one thing. 

After dinner, we stepped back across the road to the pub for a final few rounds of beers, enabling everyone to get an opportunity to say auf wiedersehen.  Eventually, the kids had to head off, so I got my hugs in before they headed down the street for their final sleep of the trip.  Chris and I stayed on having another beer or two.  Lori came back for one or two more herself, and then as the night came to a close, I walked both of them back to their flat for our goodbyes.

It is amazing how quickly time seems to just fly by.  So much happened during the four weeks, but it didn't seem like it was that fast paced.  Action packed, but leisurely.  And brilliant.

I woke up yesterday morning about the time they would all be in their taxi to the airport.  I figured it would be a bit of a struggle for me during the course of the day, and I was not wrong. At 17h, I realized that I needed to go have a quiet beer on my own in my usual spot at the pub.  Outside, at the barrel (Tonne).   This spot is my favorite because I can lean on a little railing, with my back to the street.  I can see my apartment just a few steps away.  And, I have complete view of the outside patio of the pub.  I can see the staff and guests as they come in and out. To my right, the street continues up into the older part of the neighborhood.  When I look left, I can see everyone coming up the street, either on their way home from work or from shopping, or on their way somewhere.  It is one of my favorite places to people watch. 

For the past month, I could stand at the Tonne and regularly look left and see one of the McKees (if not all of them) headed my way.  You get used to things like that very quickly. 

Sure, yesterday evening was just a little bit quieter, as my friends were still flying back home, but that didn't stop me from looking to my left. 

thanks for a great month.

bryan

A Lapse of Memory in a Time Lapse

Well, it has been kind of a peculiar week, but I guess nothing should really surprise me these days.
About this time last Friday, as I was gearing up for the weekend, I placed a spontaneous order for the sheet music for an album by one of my favorite composers.  I have been playing (or learning to play) stuff by Ludovico Einaudi for a little over a year, and the guys music is just incredible.   I have made a few nods in his direction in this space, but last Friday, while hearing a certain a piece, I immediately logged on and placed an order for the piano music and was pleased that it would be delivered via normal shipping the following Wednesday.  I had no problems with the wait, as I have plenty of other music to play already.

I then proceeded to meet up with some friends for dinner.  Earlier, one of them had phoned me with the request to borrow a little cutlery, plates, and a mug, on account that they moved away a few months ago, and their Frankfurt apartment is empty; save for an inflatable bed.   I packed the items into a small backpack, brought it along to the restaurant, and we all enjoyed catching up.  Afterwards, we made a beeline for the pub and spent the next couple of hours getting very drunk.  It was a nice evening, and when I reached my limit, I paid up, said farewell, and headed home. 

Saturday morning took a while to get going.  I finally got out of bed around 10, which is very unusual for me, but after a few coffees felt pretty good.  Then, I happened to check my phone and found a message saying, "hey Bryan, we forgot the bag last night.  hopefully someone turned it in at the pub."

Crap.

At noon, I walked over to the pub and asked Maria if by chance the little backpack was there. She checked, found nothing, and I got a little antsy.  Two minutes later, my friends walked in, hoping to find the back back as well, and they apologized for forgetting.  As I said, everyone had had several drinks the previous evening.  I was a little irritated, simply because my flat is furnished (including said items) and one day, probably many years from now, I would have to make sure the flat had those items.   Sure, I could go buy some new plates and whatever, but it would be a little bit of a hassle.

Rather than worry about it, I just had a beer, then headed back home to do a few things around the house, including making my shopping list.  I had no real plans for the day, save for the trip to the supermarket, and I really did not want to let the afternoon get away from me.  So, I got my act together, took the 15 minute shopping trip (I am speedy) and returned home to check the mailbox, where I found that the local logistics guy had come by with a package for me.  Fortunately, the card indicated that he had left the package with my neighbor, so I rang her doorbell and was delighted to find that she had my new sheet music, ordered just hours before.  I will give credit to the powers that be and am really glad that I did not spend an extra 25 euro on faster shipping. 

Suddenly, I had a new plan for Saturday afternoon, and that was to sightread the new music.  The album is called "In a Time Lapse," and is just incredibly melodic.   Listening to this composer makes me feel like playing piano, and it is hardly as if I need a lot of encouragement to play already. 

So, each day this week, I have found time to sit down and work on playing my new music.  Einaudi, in my opinion, is quite a magician.  The music he writes sounds so simple (in fact the genre is frequently referred to as minimalist), but playing it is more complicated than it initially sounds.  True, I only trained for a certain amount of years with piano, and perhaps my skill level would have been higher had I played in university.  However, I do have ability, and quite like the challenge of learning something new, even if it only gets played in the privacy of my own flat. 

I continue my physical therapy on my back, but this past week finally got into the gym for a little light training, also, and that has been a nice relief.  I went almost 2 months without going in the gym and that was not easy for me. 

Meanwhile, it has been hotter than shit in Frankfurt, to the point of almost being unpleasant.  I have to pick my words carefully, because I know where I come from, and it can sound a little whiny to complain about the heat.  I have a couple of friends who share my distaste for super hot weather (one guy actually has to go stay in a hotel when it gets like it got this past week), and we have stayed in regular communication, hoping that something would break and the temperatures would drop.

That actually happened last evening around 18h45.  Finally, a huge, albeit brief, storm came through and basically cooled everything off.  I had just gone in the pub when my phone chirped and I saw a message from the (hotel heat) guy saying "yippee the weather is better."  I was about to respond via text when I noticed him getting out of his car directly across the street. He grabbed a beer and then we stood outside and did a little rain appreciation dance.

Then, minutes later, the storm passed, and we continued dancing and drinking at the barrel outside the pub. 

Like every Friday morning, I woke up looking forward to the weekend, not so much because I have anything really planned, but rather, simply because I won't have to work.  Sure, I need to work on that mentality just a bit, and as you might have read in some of the previous posts, I am trying to put some effort into something new.

As I drank my first coffee, I decided to check my expenses for the month and also opened the mail that I brought upstairs last evening when I emptied my postbox.   I was a bit surprised to find a reminder notice from Deutsche Bahn; They had not yet received my payment for my annual travel card.  I had been sitting here the whole month checking my bank account each day to see when THEY were going to take out the funds.  For whatever reason, this time around I received a bill. 

No problem.  I logged into my account and started making the online payment transaction.  With my bank, I receive a text message giving me a little code every time I do a transaction.  This keeps things very secure and works really well.  That is, as long as your receiving phone is working.

Very few people know my "private" mobile telephone number, because I have not really used it in almost 8 years.  However, I do use that number for my banking transactions.  The number that most people use to contact me is actually my "work" number, but that's another topic.

I heard the text message alert on my private mobile, but then the device would not respond.  It is a really old BlackBerry and it has been several weeks since I have had to make a bank transaction.  Apparently the software kind of locked up which is normally not a huge issue; one simply just need to reset or restart the mobile.  So, I did this.

Once the phone restarted, I was prompted to enter my pin number, and because I do not really use this phone, I never remember the pin.  My problem today was that I could not remember where I had stored the pin information.  It has probably been over a year since I last had to reboot the phone, so I spent a few minutes trying to figure out what to do.

I checked the last place I remembered seeing what I thought was my pin, and was happy to find the little scrap of paper showing the pin number.  I was not pleased when my phone said "pin fehler" and indicated I now had 2 more tries before the phone would lock me out.

This whole time, my online transaction was sitting there unable to be completed, and I figured in a few minutes that would also time out and log me out of the transaction. So, I went to my "scary drawer" which is the top drawer in a bureau that sits in my living room.  Everything from old birthday cards to extra charging cables to random happy meal prizes goes in the drawer and I had remembered that I had hastily shoved a bunch of stuff in there right before my parents arrived to visit two months ago.

Bingo, I found a little proper scrap of rub-off paper that showed my pin.  I entered that in my phone, all the while thinking, "I thought that the paper had a little red color on it."

Pin Fehler.   Only one more try.

Indeed, I had found one of the pin card things that Telekom had sent me, but it was not the most recent one. 

I was starting to get a little antsy because I really really wanted to avoid locking my phone.  I have recently decided that I probably don't need the phone any longer but the urgent problem is that, in order to make any kind of change to how I receive my transaction code information my bank I have to give a transaction code.  Therefore, if I wanted to change the mobile telephone number with my bank so that they send all future codes to another number, I would have to first obtain a code (via my old number) in order to validate the transaction. So, I was one try away from being in a real pickle.

All while this was happening, I had "In a Time Lapse" playing in the background, and as is pretty regular with me, I had to make my morning trip to the bathroom, which added a few minutes to this whole ordeal.  Neat.

I almost broke my rule of only one cigarette per hour (kind of a new rule) but I was at a loss (one might even say lapse) as to how in the hell I suddenly could not find my correct pin number for my private mobile. 

I pulled myself together, took another trip through the scary drawer, this time taking things out of the drawer instead of trying to rummage around through the same shit five times.  I found two stocking caps,  a sharpie that I had been looking for for months, an old watch,  two more old BlackBerrys, and then I caught a glimpse of a little piece of paper with some red on it.  My PIN! 

With a whoosh, I entered the number, saw that it was accepted, then took a quick bathroom break, and finally returned to my laptop, where I logged back into my bank, set up the Bahncard transaction, then received my transaction code on my private mobile, then completed the bank transaction.  Task completed.

Only one final thing to do, which was to not put the private pin back in the scary drawer. 

And now, it is time for the weekend.  See you out there.